To myself,
sometimes its hard to seperate head from heart and with situations arising, thta seems all the more currennt ona recent scale , this grows harder and harder. I would have liked to start this not to self with a direct veiw but that conflicts me with the reasoning of self doubt has broughy me to scroll feelings on a paper. in such light i shall write untill it becomes apparent that this is causing less anxiety than nessercary.
through the train of events that has found me at this station of life, things have appeared to be turned. the sad this is it is everything you have asked for. the questions have now arisin. is this really what i wanted? or needed?
what does this make of you?
does this conflict any moral ground in which you stood?
head and heart truely at war.
the raw truth is, it is something i have asked and wished for, for a long time but its not that the chance has not arision before. i want to know why i caved this time and for this person. i think spontinuity, apart from anebration, was a very crutial factor. the spur of the moment agreement made for and exciting ride, and hence backed my reasonings for the word yes.
but should my morals be broken because of chemicals and adrenilin.
I think now it is fair to say i am making up for all the missed thinking.
I think this is where all my inspirations drives from, my mistakes, its the only truth i have.
